Vulnerability as the great equalizer

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motherhood / vulnerability

I am vulnerable but fighting it. Well, that’s not exactly true anymore. I am mostly embracing vulnerability. Since my engagement to Khalfani, I am doing things I never thought I would. I am reaching out, leaning in, stepping up and facing fears head on. I am honestly doing them with less fear in me because his encouragement, lack of judgement give me strength. I tell you, the Lord knows who he places us with. I have been placed and partnered up with a man who refuses to let me sit in my notorious stubbornness. I am that Taurus bull from cradle to grave.

But, I digress. I am a woman. I can change my mind as often as I feel. But, this vulnerability thing has some benefits already. I am working hard to shed some of the behaviors I have taken from my youth and upbringing so that there is growth in my family and household. I am working hard to let go. It may not seem like a big deal, some of these steps and overtures – but to me, they are worth gold. I can literally feel the burning of fear in my gut when I am about to be brave. I just take a deep breath and do it anyway.

I am finding that vulnerability is bringing me closer to the kind of home and family life that I want. Ones I have dreamt of.

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